Right now I am counting down the days for when chemotherapy starts (5 days to go!). I feel apprehensive yet keen to get it over and done with at the same time. I am trying to keep busy so that I don’t spend my entire time worrying. What is reassuring to know is that I am not facing this by myself as I am surrounded by lovely people who have been so kind with their messages, visits and gifts. My family have been amazing and are always there for me. We’ve had meals, chats and they’ve given me plenty of offers of help. It can’t be easy being the ‘bystanders’ but they are certainly being my tower of strength.
Last week I had a visit from one of my wonderful friends who used to work with me. She came armed with flowers and chocolates and we had a good catch up over several cups of coffee. The day before yesterday I received a beautiful bunch of flowers from one of my aunts which certainly brightened my day. In the afternoon I was treated to a cup of tea and a lovely chat with a friend from my school. Yesterday I got a packet of gin and tonic gums (non-alcoholic!) from my (fairy) godmother which made me smile. I also had a delicious afternoon tea with my husband which was a gift from a special friend.
Earlier this week I was lucky enough to be invited to attend Mass in my old school and I stayed for one of their famous buffet lunches (which I miss dreadfully!) In addition, I could not believe the gift I got from some of my wonderful friends there. They had recently attended a Young Voices concert, which I have been to for the last 3 years, and they had spoken to Tony Hadley from 80s band Spandeau Ballet, who was performing there. He had recorded the most lovely video message for me which I will treasure. It is particularly meaningful as the song ‘Gold’ was our finale for the Christmas production in 2017 celebrating the 50th anniversary of the school. I was totally blown away by the thoughtfulness of the lovely people who arranged this message for me.
The other massive support network is via the Macmillan forum, Breast Cancer Care forum and the world of Twitter. These are really good ways of sharing experiences with people who are going through the same thing. Even people who have finished treatment often give advice and explain what helped them to cope. It helps to know that there are always people out there listening and ready to offer some support.
These are just some of the things which help me every day to get through this difficult time. I can’t thank you all enough.