Still waiting, more shopping and reality

I can’t believe it’s only been a week since I received the good news that the last biopsy was lymph node negative. I’ve been so busy at work, I haven’t really had time to stop and think. Tomorrow is my last day with my class for a while and Friday is a training day. Family and friends have been sharing my relief that there does not appear to be any cancer in my lymph nodes and I have been talking to people about the next step in the process of getting well: the operation.

Although it has been a busy week, I have still found it hard not knowing what will happen after surgery. I would like to know so that I can prepare myself for the coming months. Obviously, I just need to wait until the results come through after the operation but I am finding this part quite difficult. So what do I do in times of stress? You guessed it: more shopping! I watched a video clip about a lady who had undergone breast surgery and subsequent treatment. She had a heart shaped pillow to use for car journeys and general comfort. I decided that I should have one of these so I opted for a personalised version complete with a photo of my lovely cat on the front. In addition, I felt the need to buy a poncho for those cold winter’s days which are soon to be upon us.

It is still hard to register that this whole thing is happening to me. I have tried to carry on as normally as possible and as a result, coming home to several letters from the hospital today, came as a slight shock. There was nothing in those letters that I didn’t already know but it was just a bit of a reality check. This is really happening to me. I now know that on the day of my operation I need to be there at 7.15am and I am not allowed anything to drink after 6.30am. Little technicalities but enough to give me a wake up call.

On the plus side,  if I am admitted that early in the morning,  it is likely I will be home the same day. Even going to the ice hockey on Saturday night doesn’t seem out of the question. In the meantime, half term is nearly here and we are going to Holland to relax, meet up with family and eat my own body weight in junk food. Happy days!


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